Hopefully that link worked. It's this video called No Love and it's by Eminem featuring Lil Wayne. I found out by accident while searching for something else which caused me to search Eminem and then I found that little gem. This video reminds me of my days back in junior high and a bit of high school and it speaks to me. It pretty much says how I feel. No love. I have no love for those people and no hate. I mean I don't really feel anything because I have a better life now, I have better friends. And it's about moving on with your life. When you got that stuff going on and you just want to knife those people or you think about going into their house around dinner time when they're having dinner with their kids, then you know you wait for the dad to go to the washroom or something then you pop a few bullets into him because of the stuff he did to you in junior high or high school, you think about that and then you get people who say "Move on with your life!"
And now I understand what they mean. Why let those people drag you down? I mean the bullies. It gets me nowhere and when life is going good, stuff like that doesn't matter. That's what moving on means. And if the bullies happen to come into your life and say hello, well, hello then, but I have no love for you. I mean it's too late to say sorry now. I'm not adding you to facebook, that would just be stupid.
I don't need to go for revenge. The best revenge is living well. I want to be the guy that just moves on, that's the one I want to be. I'm tired of wanting to slash people's tires and wanting to get back at people. It takes too much energy away from me. There are people out there more deserving of my attention and people out there who need me, and need me whole. People who are counting on me to just be there. Not so much to be there for them, but to just be present. It's the whole "It just wasn't the same without you" kind of thing, and I guess I get that too. I'll be somewhere and someone won't be there and I'll think "It just wasn't the same without so-and-so" and I guess that's how people feel about me, even though sometimes I don't think I'm worth going out in public. I mean what's the big deal? Who'd actually want to see me and really care about my life when I don't really have one? But I'm surprised at how many people are and how many people are interested in who I am and what I do.
So I hope I'm alive a lot longer and I hope that I keep living life and not let anything tear me down again.
I have people counting on me.
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