What were you doing five years ago today? As the holiday season began? Where were you? Who were you with? What did you want? What did you have?
Five years ago would be 2005. That's kind of funny because I was with MJ five years ago. I mean she was in North Bay and I was here, but we were dating. I pretty much talked to her a lot, talked about me coming in January 2006. Talked about the holidays. What I wanted? Well, I wanted to go visit MJ and eventually live there. What I had? I believe I didn't have anything, at least not in the city. Sure I had my family, but I still had the scars from the dark years and I never really had any closure with my family about our issues. I was pretty much ready to just up and leave. I already moved out on my own in 2000 and now that MJ was in my life, I was ready to move with her. I had a novel written because of NaNoWriMo and I figured I'd continue to write. I'd be like Kerouac, except I'd be with MJ.
Oddly enough, five years later, well, now, I'm not with MJ, even though we're still friends, but I have so much more. Five years ago, I told her I didn't have anything here, no friends, nothing, and now, she kind of rubs it in. Like she's saying "I told you so," when she hears all about my NaNo buddies.
Now, I'm in a new place (moved in December 2006) which my mother bought for me. So in a way, I'm settled. Things with my family are better.
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